On my own…but not alone
My parents leave town today. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t terrified of being home alone with 4 kids 6 & under. The enormous amount of needs to meet, souls to nurture, love to give, and stomachs to fill overwhelms me. The only thing that brings me peace is a song of David from His Word.
Last week at my Momheart group we read aloud Psalm 23. I decided to close my eyes while I listened. These familiar words came to life in a new way…
The Lord is my Shepherd I shall not want…
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside the still waters.
I pictured myself lying in lush green grass…no longer striving, just soaking in His care. Allowing Him to lead and me to follow. Letting go of control because He is in control.
When I am soul weary from giving all of myself to this noble cause, motherhood, I can run to His ever-able arms and allow Him to restore my soul.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
Three boys aged 6,4, & 2 have a lot of energy. They each want their own way. Even though it’s not really “the valley of the shadow of death”…sometimes it can feel pretty close. I’ve had those feelings while my parents have been here. Now that I will be on my own, when David cries out “I will fear no evil, for you are with me”…I am comforted to know I’m not alone.
I am on my own, but I am not alone. He is with me. He is in charge of their hearts. He knows how it all turns out. I can trust Him.
you anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Meeting everyone else’s needs requires me to continually pour out. If I am not going to the source I find I have nothing left to give. So I stand under the faucet of Living Water allowing Him to fill me until I overflow. Without time in prayer and His word I am an empty cup, a desert land with nothing to give.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord
I keep the eternal perspective in mind. Not only is this a season, but this life is just a blip on the screen of all eternity. My goal is to complete the work He has for me so that I may dwell with Him forever. Keeping the eternal destiny in mind gives me hope that these trials are temporary.
Say a prayer for me if you think of me this week:
Pray that I will seek Him during the day. That I will allow Him to shepherd me. That I will rest in His capable arms. To parent the boys just as gently as He parents me. To keep these days in perspective of the whole. To give as much grace as I have been given.
**This past week I have played the audio version of Psalm 23 on my YouVersion app…I closed my eyes and focused on the picture of lying in green pastures. It prepared my heart to meet with Him each morning.
I hope these pictures…of lying in green pastures, of a gentle & good Shepherd, of your cup overflowing will stick with you throughout the day and this week to bring you encouragement.
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